The more I looked for myself...The more I cannot recognize.

Since when I have become someone...who is just waiting for you to just msg to ask how I am,dates me out etc.
Since when I am someone who is so upset and crys too easily.

You never see them but that doesnt mean I am happy.

If you didnt see me online,would you still drop a msg whole day long?
If I didnt ask if you could accompany tml,would you ask me out in the first place?

Yet I am just so happy when you said that we would go out tml.
So happy over such a lil thing that I dont understand.
I stopped tearing immediatly and happily changed to go out to buy some stuff that I would like to prepare tml.
On my way...I just thought...since when I am like this.

What does my actions remind me you of?
To me...it is like a lonely wife who is crying all day at home and jumps to joy when her husband finally pays some attention to her.

I checked my phone every now and then...every other min and feels really stupid.

What am I doing?
What am I hoping for?

Yet for all these,I dont really blame you coz I know I gotta be fair.

But..why must you still ask where do I wanna go tml?
I acknowledge the part that you do care about my opinion.
But...

Havent you make me cry enough.
Dont you see what is so wrong in asking that.

I dun understand why I keep crying!

I hate it and I HATE this!

And a stupid song choose to play itself on the radio now...
Singapore Idols 'That's what friends are for'.
I mean the song is ok...but they sing it..it is like some overcooked spaghatti.
Yurks.


What is gg on..and I still hate this!
Gimme a night when I can smile sleeping and not cry!